Ugh

Okay, so I thought that the case management position I applied for would not really consider me because of my internship and school (the impression I got last week). However, I got a very different impression today when I was there. Basically, the clinical director told me that the woman I interviewed with last week really liked me and that they were very interested in me. It also seemed like they would do anything possible to work around my schedule so I could work for them, and continue to work for them next year (2011-2012) when I do my concentration internship. They also said that they would let me know by the end of the day about their decision. I also had contacted them yesterday to let them know about my job offer and when I would be moving along with the internship. The woman I interviewed with said that they were going to be doing stuff after Wednesday but when I told her I had another offer and they needed a decision, she asked my availability and when I said I could meet today, she arranged for me to meet with the clinical director and program director at noon today. I had a tour last week of the office and they even went as far as to tell me what the dress code was. All in all, all signs are pointing to yes, I have the job. I will probably take it because it would be a guaranteed 40 hours and I would be salaried. And I would have weekends off :-). I hate feeling conflicted though...

Rain and other random life updates....

So it turns out that we may actually go above the average for the month in terms of rain here in Maine (specifically southern Maine). At least it isn't snow. The good news is, it is supposed to be absolutely beautiful this weekend for Easter. I'm excited because I don't have to wear a winter jacket for the first time in a long time and I may be able to wear a skirt (it is supposed to be close to 70). Chris and I are probably going to go to Lewiston on Saturday night for the Easter Vigil because our friend Vanessa is going to become a member of the Church that evening. I mentioned it to him the other day because I thought that it would be nice if a group of us from Portland who were friends with her went up to support her. We don't know anyone who is being received into the Church here in Portland, although our friend Craig does run the RCIA group at the Cathedral where we go. Strange...when I moved up here almost 4 years ago, I did not like the atmosphere at the Cathedral at all and thought that it was incredibly stuffy. Times change I guess. Not like it matters anymore though here...five of the seven parishes on the peninsula have consolidated into a "cluster" because of the shortage of priests (the other two parishes are their own cluster as they are not run by diocesan priests - they're run by the Jesuits and the Franciscans, but the Jesuits are going to be taking over and running the Franciscan parish within the next year).

Work has kinda taken a turn for the worse. I really cannot get into it on here for privacy reasons, but I guess it is a good thing that I am getting out. I had a job offer from one of the places I interviewed with last week, which I will probably take because I will be able to work it around school. I do have a second interview with the case management agency, but I will probably hold off to do something like that until after I graduate and get my license. I have worked incredibly hard the past couple of years with my current job and I just want a break, especially since I am considering writing a thesis. Not 100% sure what I'm going to do yet, but I am doing my research project on the evolution of dealing with children with autism. I found a couple of books from the 1980s and several from within the past couple of years, so it should be interesting to see the changes in opinion and treatment. Hopefully, this will be enough to turn into a thesis. If I take the job, I would be working with children with autism and helping to come up with and implement behavior plans, so I could always integrate that as well. Stay tuned...............

*sigh*

The drama continues. I really cannot get into it on here for privacy reasons, but basically, for the unforeseen future, I will basically be a filler at different houses in my company. I had two more interviews yesterday (one to be a Behavioral Health Professional where I would be working with a clinician to help a family come up with and implement a behavior plan in their home; the second was to be a case manager at a neurorehabilitation center in Portland).

I am trying my best to remain positive through all of this and keep reminding myself that in the week and half since I learned that I was being demoted, I have had three interviews. There are other jobs out there that I haven't heard from yet but my resume is probably in the stack and they'll get to it eventually (maybe...gotta love the black hole of resumes). Even yesterday though, one of the women I interviewed with said that she really was interested in me and the second woman talked with me for an hour, gave me a tour of the office and even went as far as to say what the dress code was. Both are positive signs, but I need to remain realistic.

Wow....

This is AMAZING!
http://www.insidebayarea.com/ci_14688147?source=most_viewed

You always hear about women giving birth on the freeway on the way to the hospital or in their bathroom with the help of their husbands, boyfriends, partners, etc...but their own children, who are 9 and 11? Wow.

I think that would be my worst fear...not the whole giving birth and having my children be the ones who help me deliver...but delivering at home without the miracles of drugs. I understand why people do have natural births, but I am a wuss about pain. Give me the drugs and no one will be getting hurt.

More on the job front

I'm at work right now waiting for the next shift to arrive at 9:30a. Hurray for overnights. I was going to do a project for school but I just could not concentrate on it. I think it is the fact that my mind does not work 100% at night. I never did an all nighter in college (much to Chris's surprise) and I value my sleep way too much. I understand that because my client needs to have 24 hour staffing and my supervisor wants us all to have 40 hour schedules that I need to do this, but I really don't like how basically my day becomes wasted because I go home and sleep all day to catch up on the sleep I didn't get. Last week, I did the overnight on Wednesday and then on Thursday, right before I was planning on going to sleep, one of my staff called out because she had to go to the ER (she works at a movie theater on the side and a sign dropped on her face and poked her in the eye....ouch). Well, I couldn't find anyone to take the shift so I had to go in and do it...on 2.5 hours of sleep. Yay. I came home and slept for a couple of hours, had a meeting for my internship and then went back home and slept some more. Today, I get to go home in an hour, sleep until 2:30 or 3 and then go to class.

The interview yesterday went really well (that's the thing I don't like about overnights either...my days get all mixed up). I think that the guy who interviewed me seemed impressed by what I have done. He said that he would call me by next week. I hope that he does. The job seems interesting and challenging. It would also give me weekends off, which I have not had in almost 2 years. That would be a very welcome change. I would also be able to work in an office, which I have not had in almost 2 years as well. I miss interaction with people. Sure I have my residents, but they're asleep half the time. When I got home, I actually got an email from another company asking me if I could meet with them next Tuesday. I'm pretty excited about that interview as well. I keep looking to see if there are any more jobs in Cumberland or York County, but there haven't been the past couple of days. It's also the middle of the month so there may be more by the end of the month (I hope).

I need sleep. That's what is most important right now.

oh the joys of working in social services!

So I need to look for a new job. I had a meeting yesterday with my supervisor and his supervisor and I was basically demoted for financial reasons. One of my residents is in a rehab facility right now because she fell and broke her arm and fractured her hip and we don't know when she is coming back. We get paid based upon how many hours are billed for and since we are billing for half the time...they cannot afford to keep me on. I suspected this was going to happen sine my supervisor sent me an email requesting a meeting last Monday so I spent time last week looking for other jobs. Luckily for me, I was able to find quite a few of them and I actually have an interview tomorrow morning. I however need to purchase a suit tonight because the last time I wore one, I was a good 15lbs heavier than I am now. My other choice is just to go back to school and get it all done. That right now is looking like the better option since I haven't had the interview yet and don't know who else is being interviewed.

I was totally expecting this to happen, but it still was a bitter pill to swallow that it did and didn't happen necessarily on my own terms.

New Blog

I had a livejournal for a while, then stopped using it, and then deleted it. I didn't feel like starting a LJ again, so I figured I would start a blog here. This will just be a place for my random musings, and happenings in my life. May not blog every day or there may be months at a time where I don't blog at all...but be patient I guess!